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Dai_Jeck_Lo
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Country: United States
State: New York
Birthday: 3/11/1984
Gender: Male
Interests: i dunno....
Expertise: none
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
7/27/2002
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| Wow, amazing what a few months can make in a person's life. I've gained weight, wisdom and retardedness all at the same time. Lol. I also got other things  ...hehe... Anyways I'm writing this entry cuz i been going thru the motions of life and getting my ass kicked...and I'm learning alot about myself. I also found out which of my friends are the ones I can ultimately rely on and not. I got to see my true colors in these times and others as well, and that has made me a little bitter...dissappointments with life and people tend to do that to me...augh...but I kno thats not really me saying that...jus my upset self..I'm sure it will pass...I just need to get some positivity back into my life....
BUT, TODAY IS A LITTLE DIFFERENT. On my way to the New Yorker, I bumped into the old lunch lady that used to work at P.S.2. Mary the lunch lady that the kids used to see at recess. It was amazing how she still remembers me after all these years...she says that I look the same, just bigger, grr....thought I might have changed a little more...roar....BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY, MY 6TH GRADE TEACHER, MR. STANLEY ROSS, PASSED AWAY A FEW YEARS AGO....I hope that the people who are reading this who went to P.S.2. with me who was in his class remember him...He was one of those rare people in my life that made me see life differently, taught me lessons not just in class and schoolwork, but in LIFE, I just wished I could have told him that. He would be around 60-62 years old this year, but they took him early, I was told he got very sick and had to take a year off from teaching....and then passed away...AHHH...LIFE...it brings tears into my eyes knowing that one of the greatest teachers I ever had is no longer with us.Just 11 years ago, I was a student of his...oh god how time flies, I mean I still think it was a wile ago and I dont' quite remember what he taught me, but i kno for a fact that it stuck with me...I think about it...11 years...and yet it seems so far away yet still so close....I don't believe that a decade can make such a difference....I only hope his wife was taken care of financially, cuz I certainly never tried to contact him....I still regret not asking for Mary's contact info, she left before I could ask....Mr. Ross....Finding that he passed away made me remember that LIFE TRULY IS PRECIOUS...I been so caught up in the stupid things in my life and the stupid things that I do and other people do that I forgot that...its amazing that after all these years....I'm still learning from him...just regret not having a better relationship with the guy...well anyways...the 2nd grade teacher Ms. Eng is not there anymore, Mr. Walton and Ms. Serapi are retired, Mr Chan the gym teachre is still there and teaching, Mary herself has now been there for 17 yrs and now does Deskwork...I forget who else there was..Oh yea..Ms. Ng the kindergarden teacher is still there..lol..I used to have the biggest crush on her..Robbie, Dickmark...not that kinda crush u perverted assholes...but now that I think about it...lol..jp jp...I do remember bumping into Ms. Chin a year ago at teh train station near the school...
Anyways...Mom wants me to go to bed, so I should go. And for the things in my life that dissappoint me...I gotta get better at dealing with it and moving on past the point....eh..lol...Just thought the P.S.2. crew should hear about their old teachers...piece..me outz..
DYZ
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| omfg...i hit my head going to the bathroom at this kareoke
place...fucking have a stupid ass scab n my forehead...short ass
stall...hurt my head and was bleeding..stupid womens bathroom...dont'
ask me why i was in the womens bathroom...AND i dropped my treo on the
streeet...its so sratched up now...sniff sniff..my baby.....augh...so i
ordered a skin case online today...hehe..its baby blue...yup yup...im
so....COOL....lol...didnt' want the wite one cuz it was too plain...and
i no longer want an ipod nano...it has too many problems...anywyas..i
will update another time...im jus bsing right now...
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| ok..my first real entry....its been like a year since i last
posted....i can't believe that..anyways...to the entry!!..BTW...I'm
being serious...so if u ppl dun wanna read sumthing serious and then
make a stupid comment don't bother reading it!
One thing on my mind lately is the idea of change. I realized that
although i have alot of the same old tendencies and certain attributes,
over all i am no longer the same person anymore. I look around me and
find the fact that i am constantly suprised that alot of the time alot
of my close friends and even my family dont' realize that I'm
different, and yes u asses....I have always been different. I mean I
see how my old group of friends interact with me and how new friends
interact with me, and its sad how my old group of friends see me as if
I were the same person in the past. I want some people to realize that
I will not and do not do some of the things I used to do. Like deal
with petty moaning and bitching and doing stupid shit....I know that
sounds mean, but I had to get that offa my chest....Anyways...on
another note.
I noticed that it's hard to recognize change. Yesterday in my
marketting class I was thinking of a close and dear friend of mine that
was a marketting major and I got to thinking how she has changed too.
The harsh reality of the world has made alot of people change. It's
hard to believe in positive ideas with all the negativity in the world.
But this friend of mine, I look back and realized just how much time
and experience can change someone. She hasn't been the same for a few
months. She had life beat her up. It hurt me when I realized that I
didnt' see this sooner. I was so caught up in the motions of life that
I didn't realize just how drastic the change was. I hope she will find
taht spark she once had in her. I really hope she does. And this
pertains to alot of other people in my life. I see now how a person can
appear to be totally different once life beats em up. Its almost as if
you can see the hope in them disappear. I'm angry that I didn't have it
in me to nurture and nourish that. I also understand why people always
ask me about her and things like that. She had something so special,
but only those who were around her could see it in her. She didn't even
see it herself. And I didn't notice this until recently either. I look
back to a halloween party, and a thanksgiving, and a christmas, and
even to a birthday party. Alot of the people in my life have gotten
beat up. And I was too busy to stop that from happening. I lacked and
still lack the ability to show these people that they are truly special
people and they need to believe in themselves. I have failed in this
area in my life. And I only wish that I could one day stop this from
happening again. I need to get better and more capable. I only wish the
people that I mention learn how I truly view them and how i wish they
could understand why I write this. I have to grow up some more. I
already have, but its not enough, and for all u ppl hoo are hoping ima
be nicer to u....MUAHHAHA NO!...ima grow up mentally!...so no changes
to me being a corny ass...
De
P.S.........I can post with my treo on xanga....if you guys didn't
already kno...and the ipod nao is hott!!....I dont' caer if you people
dont' like it...!!!!
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| This is a test, I'm trying to post on my treo.....
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| let's see....no more long entries...hurts the hand to type so much. Yesterday I came to the startling conclusion that I was doing many of the things that I despise in others...and one of those things was listening...I haven't been keeping my ears open recently...2 ears 1 mouth...I should use them percentage wise more accordingly....My level of intensity in doing those annoying things isn't as great as some people...but....that's no excuse.
JUST BECAUSE YOU UNDERSTAND SOMETHING, DOESN'T MEAN YOU'VE MASTERED IT!
A good example of this is..."I know he's a good guy...and I shouldn't be a third wheel...but it's his own fault his girlfriend like to mess around with guys like me behind his back"...lol...yea that's really fucked up I know...methinks me examples are really bad....
I fell whim to the common everyday thing of moaning and bitching and competing with people who are no worst or better than me...
GIRLS PLEASE READ THIS!
Oh yea....my quest for the perfect jean still eludes me...
I must find the perfect ones that have a vintage classic yet professional look...anyone know any place that might have them?...I also want to get a pair of sneaker shoes...you guys know what I mean....like them black diesels that kinda look like shoes but are sneakers??...Someone please help me!....I been asking all of my closest female friends and they wanna kill me for beings so picky with them jeans...
p.s. Seven jeans for mankind are really nice...but...is it worth the 150 dollar price tag?...shit....they don't even have the color I want....dammit....
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